Mouse's Nest: Duality of Emotion

Quotes

We don't see things as they are, we see things as we are. ~ Anais Nin

We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be. ~C.S. Lewis

The soul would have no rainbow, if the eyes had no tears.

Writing is a socially acceptable form of schizophrenia . ~E.L. Doctorow

Some mothers are kissing mothers and some are scolding mothers, but it is love just the same, and most mothers kiss and scold together. ~Pearl S. Buck

The follies which a man regrets most, in his life, are those which he didn't commit when he had the opportunity. ~Helen Rowland

It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society. ~Krishnamurti

We rarely think people have good sense unless they agree with us. ~La Rochefoucauld

If life was fair, Elvis would be alive and all the impersonators would be dead. ~Johnny Carson

When I speak of home, I speak of the place where -- in default of a better -- those I love are gathered together; and if that place were a gypsy's tent, or a barn, I should call it by the same good name notwithstanding. ~Charles Dickens, Nicholas Nickleby

Absolutes are never true.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Duality of Emotion

My SIL Julie coined the above term when I was wanting to come home during my vacation in Alaska. I have been using this term constantly, particularly in regards to our upcoming move. Today, I think of it in regards to my sons return to school.

I dropped them off in their classrooms, helped Quinn put away his supplies, both boys hugged me and kissed me (Quinn a little bit more than Rhys) and then I said goodbye. I didn't cry. I didn't even technically tear up. But that lump is in my throat and my chest. And while my home is so blessedly quiet, I miss my boys. I'm sure this will pass, ~~give me an hour~~ by next week or so, but in the meantime, I have a duality of emotion. Where have my babies gone? And yet, I'm so happy they're back in school: learning, playing with friends, being open to new opportunities, not fighting with each other or begging me for food after they've just eaten and said that they were full, full, full!

Meanwhile, Lulu and I will be having "Home Sweet Homeschool" aka reading lessons and playing Barbies. Not much duality of emotion on my end with that. She starts Pre-K on Monday and I'm sure I'll be back here crying and whining and wasting my first few hours of silent daylight.

3 comments:

mia said...: Wow! Your boys are looking very different these days!?!

Yay...for having mommy and EmmaLou time!! I am sure she is loving it :)

I think your mother is right...we as mothers do wear our hearts on our sleeves.; September 3, 2008 at 12:02 PM
Maryann said...: sound to me like you need one more little mouse to fill that nest of yours. Where do the kids go? Why do they grow fast? Yet, we do love school...sweet school! xoxo; September 3, 2008 at 4:14 PM
Jillybean said...: I still have a hard time when I drop Max off at preschool.
As nice as it is to be able to go shopping by myself, I miss having my little buddy around.
I'm still talking to the empty back seat of the car.; September 3, 2008 at 10:27 PM